destination replaced by some other existence

some things just need to fade into oblivion---into pale thin shadows. as if they never happened--never should have happened.
i look back to certain points in time--crossroads points--- when things went unfortunately wrong.
if only derailing events could have been fast forwarded--see the end before the beginning---maybe the beginning would have been different if overlaid with foreknowledge weighted with wisdom.
some things would be vastly different today--studies finished--goals accomplished.
instead everything was frozen in time.
can the path back be rediscovered? can abandoned threads be picked up and reconnected?
maybe--except time in mortal frame moves inexorably forward--change is inevitable.

the course that was first set is closed--hedged up as if by thorns---altered by one small decision.
if only---
the destination is no longer in sight---replaced by some other existence--maybe even by a new person.
a new person? a wiser person? lets hope so.